Mimosa Mom

I am angry.

I am sad.

I am terrified.

I am happy.

I am proud.

I am sobbing.

I am worried.

I can’t keep watching the videos.

Of men.

Women.

Being murdered.

Murdered.

On the streets of America.

For existing.

For being human.

For saying enough.

“He was bait.”

He was a CHILD.

In a blue bunny beanie to keep his head warm. 

“She tried to run him over.”

She was turning away from him.

Trying to leave.

“He had a gun.”

One he was allowed to carry in his belt. 

But in his hand, a cell phone. 

As this is happening, 

Some from Sacramento accomplished his dream today. 

On the opposite side of the Earth. 

During the bright daylight in the wind. 

He climbed to the top of the world 

And people smiled and cheered. 

He said hi to his kids through the camera 

When he safely made it down. 

Hugged his wife. 

He’ll come home a hero for doing something so incredible. 

So incredible. 

And this evening

In the cold, bleakness of America, 

There are families that won’t get to say hi to their dad 

Mom 

Brother 

Sister 

Ever again. 

Because they didn’t comply. 

They didn’t stand down. 

They recorded. 

They looked illegal 

They want anyone to be held accountable. 

They want it to stop. 

They were in the way. 

If you watch any of this going on

And your first reaction is 

“But they…”

“They should have…”

“Why didn’t they…”

“If they only…”

“Well they shouldn’t have…”

Then you are part of the compliance. 

The downfall. 

The ignorance. 

The pain. 

The wrong. 

You are wrong. 

Because it’s no longer 

“We can disagree about politics.” 

We can disagree about student loans. 

We can disagree about the high speed railroad. 

We can disagree about legalizing cannabis. 

We cannot disagree when it comes to 

Murdering people. 

Detaining American citizens without cause. 

Removing access to necessary healthcare for women. 

Cutting funding for childhood cancer research. 

What is happening is wrong. 

All of it. 

How do I tell my babies that amazing accomplishments happened today 

Knowing that at the same time 

A man was murdered for having 

A cell phone. 

Just like the cell phone used to take a selfie from the top of the world. 

I’m sad. 

And I’m worried. 

And I don’t know how to help.

Because I don’t want to lose what I have. 

Because I don’t want my babies to not have their mom for any reason I can prevent. 

Because I love my community. 

This has to end. 

So we can continue to accomplish our dreams.